So the other day my best friend and I were in a car collision. We both walked away uninjured (provided you call sprained backs and necks uninjured) however the van is in rough shape. Wish I had a photo to show you. Anywho I was TERRIFIED for my besties safety, this accident had pulled us even closer together (if that’s even humanly possible) and I am just so thankful God has put her in my life :) I am very blessed to have her<3 The above picture is us with our “Super Power Bracelets” in the ER after getting dragged in there by my concerned mother :)
// love you trace <3
THE MAC EYES OF DEATH.
I love this.
whiney, sappy crap.
From early this morning.
Im currently blogging from a greyhound. however im on one of the old ones that dont have wifi so this wont be posted until i find my way back to peterborough.
I spent the last 24 hours in ottawa. i love ottawa. i can speak as much french as i want. ( french = my first language, although youd never know it ) I get to spend time with my older sister WHOM I LOVE. so much. i dont know how i spent 19 years of my life without a big sister. and i get to see my niece and nephew who fill my heart every time i see them. Tonight, Kaileigh said “I love you soooooo much auntie sarah! ” i just wanted to keep hold of her tiny little pink puffy coat and never let go. I was so excited to spend another night with my sissy and my brother in law, but then my ride informed me she wanted to stay in ottawa longer. long story short.. i couldnt do it. i have my second shift at the art store in 13 hours.
so i almost stranded myself, but caught the last bus home, at 12:55am. so now, its 1:04, and the ottawa sights are passing me by, and im sitting in the back of a greyhound ( in the triple seater beside the bathroom that REEKS) and im profusely bawling my eyes out.
I want to be here longer. I want to go to ottawaU and see daniel and go have drinks with him. i want to go to rideau with katie and spend outrageous amounts of money. I want to take the OC transpo bus to hunt club and drop my niece and nephew off at daycare.
when im in ottawa, i feel alive. When im in peterborough, the same thoughts run through my head. im nearly 21, my marks arent beautiful enough to make deans list and go to university, i live with 3 couples and im alone.
and it hurts. it kills. I want to feel satisfaction, and happiness.I dont even remember the last time i wheezed when i laughed.
Nothing makes me happy anymore. I honestly have cried msyself to sleep atleast once a week in the past month.
i dont want to feel like this anymore
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