I miss my friends so much.
I have a tendency to get really attached to the people i love. I love them and i love them deeply. Regardless of what our relationship may be (even just a small friendship) when I learn that you’re a great person, I generally cant get enough of you.
Cue my core four. These four girls need no mention. They know what makes me tick. They know what I take in my coffee and they know when I need creamy dill chips. They know all about me, in fact they probably know more about me than i know about myself. I’m at least five hours (if not more) away from these girls. I feel so empty without being able to see them all the time. I’ve actually just spent nights crying and looking at pictures of them and thinking about how much I miss them.
This morning my sister’s best friend was rushed to hospital after her boyfriend crashed her car. It was a numbing moment. Before I found out that she was ok, i sat and thought to myself “why cant that be my friend…why cant i be the one rushing home to see them” and then I realized, how freaking selfish can i be? why do i need something that serious to happen, so that i can see my friends?
I need to see my best friends. Everything is bringing me down. I know this move was good and i really love Ottawa, the school, I even love the city bus. But i need someone here who can bring me back down to earth. At most, I need to make friends here. I spent all my time with my sister and my niece, and dont get me wrong, I love those two girls more than words can say. But i need a friend.